please dear gods....

I woke up with knots in my stomach today. Knots and a mile long “to do” list. It was quiet when I woke up. Now that “Daylight Savings” has rolled the clock back an hour, I wake up before my alarm goes off , which is around 6:00am. Today is election day and I am nervous as hell. I have had mixed feelings about today for months now. Part of me is filled with hope , while the other part is terrified. This election is so important to me. I really feel that it is our last chance at change. Sounds cliché, I know, but it has a strong measure of truth. I know that I am not alone in these feelings, but that doesn’t make each painful minute click by any more quickly. I am so tired of feeling like the minority in this country. So tired of feeling like there is something wrong with me for thinking politics is about more than money, religious beliefs and gun control. Granted those are important issues, however government is about governing the people. We need to think about our freedoms, our position globally, the education we offer our children, the services we offer people who can’t take care of themselves, the world we are destroying, and the corruption of our elected officials. People in this country are so worried about themselves only and what affects them directly , that it is no wonder our economic system crashed. Conservatives walk around afraid of the word socialism , but then turn around and teach their children to share. Sharing is essential to human existence, hence why societies were even formed at all. Hasn’t anyone ever taken an anthropology class? The issue we need to worry about isn’t who is going to get taxed, the issue is where are those taxes going? Are they going to roads, hospitals, and schools or are they going to politician's wardrobes and travel expenses? I am uneasy about the consequences of this election regardless of the outcome. What if Obama gets elected and then assassinated? What if Obama gets elected and then turns out to be as bad as Bush? ( although that seems impossible) It all seems so scary.

Aside from election craziness , the rest of my life is chaos. Ordered chaos, but chaos all the same. Melissa’s wedding is in less about 10 days. Her bachlorette party is this weekend. We are driving down to South Beach Saturday morning and staying for a little over 24 hours , in an attempt to party away her last few days of freedom. Also, my friend Jessica Noel is in town. I am the maid of honor in her wedding, which is scheduled for March. Therefore, Jessica and I are spending tomorrow evening dress shopping. Needless to say- this week has been, and will continue to be, wedding insanity. On top of the wedding overload, school registration is about to drive me insane. Trying to cross enroll or being a transient student is impossible. And of course HCC messed up my financial aid AGAIN. I swear I spend half of my life running around trying to fix things because someone , somewhere made a mistake.

Again my saving grace has been Neil. He has managed to keep me from dragging a sharp razor blade against my fleshy pale skin. Sometimes I wonder what I would do without him. I know in the back on my mind, I would be okay without him in my life. But then I wonder, who would be there to keep me sane and save my ass? It just doesn’t feel like anyone else could do as good a job as Neil does.

Halloween was a trip. I took some interesting pictures of the cute little trick or treaters in Neil’s parent’s neighborhood, which is where we gave out candy. Then we went to a small party at Jenn’s house, where I realized that I have the coolest friends on the planet. Let me just say, 2:00am strong man competitions are the best. Jenn’s neighbor’s were also having a rocking Halloween party which we managed to crash for a little while. Twenty four year old kids are so funny. At the neighbor’s party I actually ran into a co-worker ( only about 20 people work at my office), I was like “ talk about a small world.” The rest of the weekend was a recovering blur, except for Sunday, when Neil and I drove out to Brooksville in order to inspect the wedding site Jessica and Andrew have picked out. Talk about a hippy wedding. They are seriously having it in the middle of the country. In fact , they are asking people to camp after the wedding. Jessica’s mother was super cute though . She was just diagnosed with MS a little over a year ago. We spent the day BBQing , talking politics, planning the wedding, and walking around the country side.

Now I have to get back to work , while figuring out how to accomplish the millions of things left on my damn “too do” list. If anyone would like to donate a personal assistant to me, I wouldn’t look a gift horse in the mouth.. That ‘s for sure.

OBAMA..OBAMA…...OBAMA!!!!