Dear Zack,
It has been a while since I wrote you a letter. Every letter that I write you just seems so repetitive, like there is nothing new to say. It is x-mas eve and you are on my mind. I always think about you more during the holidays. Probably because every holiday with you was so special. I think I still have every gift you ever gave me :) It has been six years now, since you died. A lot has changed. Melissa had a baby and got married. Can you believe that? Everyone has grown up so much. And it is not just our friends who have changed, the whole world has changed. How I wish you could see it all. You've missed so much. Or have you? Maybe you are here somewhere, experiencing it as a toddler; In another body, in another life. Either way I wanted to know that we bought you some Y-bor pavers. That's right, your name is historically memorialized forever. I knew how pleased you'd be about that. My little superstar. We even bought you three stars for all of your stage names ;) It was hard to decide where to have them put, but I know you'd like the location. In a way, I guess it is a x-mas gift to you.

I keep waiting for your loss to get easier, I mean for god sake's it has been six years. but it just seems to get harder. I feel like I miss you more and more with each passing day. If it is even possible to miss you more.I guess, I feel like your legacy is fading slowly and that I am losing you more and more as the time passes. The other day, I realized that I only keep in touch with a handful of people who even know who you were.

An although my hearts hurts every time I think of you and I have to fight my hardest to hold back the tears, every memory of you leaves a smile on my face. Every silly thing you did and every moment we shared is a piece of treasured happiness. I still think back to the many private jokes and phrases we coined. You were so naughty some times but in such a delicious way. Like a huge piece of cheesecake.

I miss you my Moondoggy, you and your poopy diaper face :) I wish you were here, giving me strength, holding my hand, and making me laugh.

Merry Christmas my love, where ever you are!